Feeling safe

Dear readers, hope you are all OK. Today just a short article won't be too long as I know I have been telling you a lot about how I feel lately and what has been going on. Feel more or less the same and thanks for those who have been there despite annoying you with my problems lol anyway in the middle of all that there are a few things that keeps me going and helps me whenever I need, that are here for me, that also helps me escape from time to time and make me feel safe in some ways, I can't really explain it but I love this feeling no matter what people would or could think, it has always been there for me... it is here whenever I am reading, writing or watching movies that I like... plunging myself in another (slightly) imaginary world... making my imagination going...giving me ideas as well or simply relaxing me. I can't help but love that feeling. There is also another thing that really helps me ( but shush, keep your lips sealed, this is a state secret) hum I wonder if I should tell you
 now...lol hum hum sorry to keep you waiting... lol well what do you think? Oh well I am trusting not to tell or revealing that secret to anyone else!!! Ready? Lol well the thing or actually I should say who... this person was/is a really great author no matter what people could say
I still love her and is never too far  and one of the time she has been here was a few months ago when I was writing my dissertation which was about her and the romance in her novels (by now you might have guess whom I am talking about? ) and well I was stressing as the deadline was approaching... ( just like I am doing today but for as you know different reasons) and I just started reading one of her famous book: which one do you think ?  oh I really think that by now you have probably guess.
 No? Lol anyway let's get to the point the book that I started to read that day was of course the one and only... Pride and Prejudice! And whitout really explaining it I really felt great, felt and still feel safe, better. I am simply in another world. Nice don't you think?  she is still here whenever I need and you have guess that it is Jane Austen!  And to think I wanted to write only a short article... lol never mind always a pleasure to share things with you. Thank you again for listening to me and for being here. Take care and see you soon for another article. XXX

in need of relaxation

Dear readers, hope you are OK and are having a good summer whatever you are doing. Well, for me as you already know by now, my mood lately has been quite low, playing Russian mountain... and I don't like it much... so many things in my head... am stressed and a pack of nerves.I did not know it could be possible, going so fast and the next thing you know, you're growing up already.it is a good thing I know as we are all doing that one day but it is also overwhelming.
Everyone is looking at you expecting you know or have at least an idea of what you would like to do, or just wondering because they care about you but sometimes you still feel a bit lost and trying not to panic. It feels like a big step towards independence, it is also natural I guess, who wouldn't want that? It is nice and once you have figured out what you want/ would like to do, you must feel quite free and like a weight has been lifted. hum, that sounds good... let's try and stay positive... I hope that once again it will be OK. Just need to be reassured in a way. Anyway sorry to bother you with all that . Helps to write about it, thank you as always for listening. Hope everything makes sense as it is getting late and my eyes are closing themselves... and sorry in advance for any misspelling
 Take care and see you for another article XXX

Film quotation-1

Dear readers, as usual, hope you're all OK since my last article! As for me, not much change, depends of the day actually, some days it's OK (more or less) and others, less but what can you do? lately, my mood (as you already know by now) has been playing russian mountains, grr...I don't like it very much either and hope to get throught it soon...am still a pack of nerves and quite stressed! But I won't worry or bore you with all that too much (see previous article), I just wanted to share with a film quotation (I know that I've probably seen that movie, I don't know how many time-but it's like books I'd say, when you're really like them, no matter how many times you're reading or watching them, well, (smile), it's doesn't matter, you don't have the impression to have seen it/them so much, as if you had only discovered it/them yesterday! what I found great is that it doesn't get old, not one bit! :) and you'll probably recognized this film by just reading this famous sentences (hope it's faithful, it's quite late, sorry in advance). moreover, I would have hoped to put a picture to illustrate it, expect I'm afraid I still can't, technologies and me, equals two sometimes! lol anyway, in waiting, here is the quotation (I still love it and simply want to melt, don't you? despite watching this movie a hundred times at least lol): 'I'm just a girl standing in front of a boy, asking asking him to love her'!!!! (Anna Scott played by Julia ROberts) Isn't that sweet? :) and now you must have guess that it comes from 'Notting Hill'! if you are as addicted as me to romantic comedies and happy ending! :) please do enjoy them without moderation and no restriction! :) see you soon for another article, take care, xxx

Re-lecture

Dear readers, hope you're all OK! Sorry to ask you that questions most...er...well, quite often actually (lol) but I like to start an article by asking how you are...I think it's of course more polite but also nice, don't you think? :) anyway (apparently once again a word I use very often!), where was I? Ok, well, my mood is more or less the same as you probably already know by now if you have been following the last articles I've written. I won't be too long today, nor will I bother too much with that...I hope! :) not always easy to...plunge yourself in a whole new world, quite impressive sometimes, at least it's what I feel at the moment! so, if you have seen the title of this article, you've been probably (or not and already have an idea?), wondering what this is about? well, as you are aware by now...I love reading books, it always there for me whenever I need (same for my writing, which also gives me ideas for new potential stories)! it allows me to escape, to find a few hours of peace, to forget my many worries (especially now), I love losing myself in another 'world' for a moment, to imagine how characters are, how they live...and many other things (see articles in relations of books, there are many lol, can't get enough of them!!!) and I know that I read a lot (if you would see all the books I've got, you'll probably think I'm crazy^^) and sometimes it also happens that when searching for new book to read, I re-read some...(sometimes I've already re-read it!) but it never gets old! and you then know that no matter (same as the movies, see once again article 'no matter how much..') you still like to read them again, and you're still loving it! you can't really explain why you do it but never mind! :) another clue that tells you, the author is really good, always impressed and often wonder how they do it? sometimes it so good that you really can't stop reading it (or re-reading it), you have to know what happens next as you are turning the pages, this feeling of impatience appears and you can't help but form your own theories and discovering what are the author's idea(s)! :) great, isn't it? on that note, I'll leave you for now and hope to see you soon for another article! take care, xxx

Lost

Dear readers, hope you're OK, at least better than me lately, as you might already know by now if you have been reading my articles for the past few weeks and sorry to bother/annoy you with all that, don't mean to and would prefer to talk about something else, I assure you, like the book I've been reading or the stories I'm writing or would like to write one day, to talk about the sun that have been visiting us more often lately or holidays or friends or a few close members of family that I miss, or movies I've been seeing or seeing again and again (see 'No matter how much...'article for example)or talk about anything else for that matter, but apparently I can't yet...my mood has been low and still like to play russian mountains...grrr, I don't like it! still the problem of being able to find a job, now that uni has finished in May. It may sounds simple, just like some people might think it is either because they are less scared than me and it seems like the most natural steps (which is true) or maybe they're used to it...but for me it still not that simple, it feels like a giant step towards...my indenpendance! I'm panicking! and always wonder how those people do it? they make it sounds like it was nothing less than sending a letter in the post or something similar like taking breakfast in the morning or getting up or drinking a cup of tea/coffee/hot chocolate or doing some shopping...! when (for me) it is not! regularly feels like (sorry for the repetition!) a fish lost in the big ocean wondering which direction to go! still trying to figure out what to do and not to panic too much! when actually I'm...not excuse I guess but just what I feel! Hopefully, I probably will get through all that...and will try to be positive! thanks again for taking time to listening to me and hope you still have some pleasure reading this blog as much as I enjoy writing articles for the past three years and a few months now...! see you soon for another article, take care and have nice holidays! xxx

What to do?

Dear readers, I hope that with that fine weather we had lately ,you're OK and are enjoying it wherever you are, whatever you're doing, holiday (or soon to be) or still working (then good luck to you!) As you probably already know, lately my mood has been low, playing russian mountains...well, not much progress there...I (still) don't sleep very well, I'm stressed, worried and still feels like a fish in a big ocean...I won't repeat myself too much or by now (lol) I'll have already bored you! :) in any case, this blog often helps sometimes, not matter how much I wrote the same things or tries to share with you different subjects...even though I'm still wondering how much longer I will continue it...or whether I'll write as much as I do...it's here if need...maybe not the same I guess as to really confide into someone (friends or family) but it kinds of helps me...as writing has always helped me and still does when I don't know what to say exactly...well, I have my writing...(smile) anyway, where was I? Yes, my mood and what still (oups also a word I seemed to use often^^) troubles me...I guess we are more or less the same when we finally leave uni to go into the 'real' word and to become indenpendant...it is very appealing as you can do whatever you want and not have someone to tell you what to do...but for me...it is scary...maybe once I'm in it, it will be fine...but for now...I'm...(trying not use the same word again...^^)maybe I should buy a synonyms dictionary in english, that would be quite helpful...lol, yet trying to figure out how to get through things, telling myself it'll be OK...not easy...but let's stay positive?! Thank you again for being here and listening to me (hope I don't bore you too much!) see you soon for another article (hopefully more joyful!),take care,xxx

Summertime

Dear readers, hope you're OK, I know that I probably ask you the same question everytime lol and sometimes just like me, one time is enough, though it doesn't mean it not too bad when someone ask you if you are fine, no matter how many times...it still nice to have someone or several person thinking about you, no?:) anyway, we have just started this new month, july! crazy as the time can pass quite quickly! and of course, the summer still makes us waiting impatiently, to be in swim suit on the beach or in the swimming pool with a good book and don't forget the sunscreen (don't be too lazy, I know but the sun can sometimes be wicked!! ) let's hope the sun will be here soon, despite of course making a few apparition...! well, we also need rain and water...but sun is still nice!!! :) anyway (probably a word you must have noticed I used quite often lol) just a short article...I don't know when I'll write a new one! lately, my mood has been playing russian mountains...and despite being getting used to it, it's still slightly annoying! :) many things in my head, uni is now finished, still strange sometimes, like something is missing lol! in the meantime (sorry again if I repeat myself too much, I'll be brief!) trying to figure what to do next, still scary and stressful for me...feel a bit lost and don't know what direction to take...! I suppose it is not abnormal...but I don't know...in any case, let's stay positive! :) and thank you again for listening to me! hope I don't boring to much! lol take care and see you soon for another article! xxxx