in need of relaxation

Dear readers, hope you are OK and are having a good summer whatever you are doing. Well, for me as you already know by now, my mood lately has been quite low, playing Russian mountain... and I don't like it much... so many things in my head... am stressed and a pack of nerves.I did not know it could be possible, going so fast and the next thing you know, you're growing up already.it is a good thing I know as we are all doing that one day but it is also overwhelming.
Everyone is looking at you expecting you know or have at least an idea of what you would like to do, or just wondering because they care about you but sometimes you still feel a bit lost and trying not to panic. It feels like a big step towards independence, it is also natural I guess, who wouldn't want that? It is nice and once you have figured out what you want/ would like to do, you must feel quite free and like a weight has been lifted. hum, that sounds good... let's try and stay positive... I hope that once again it will be OK. Just need to be reassured in a way. Anyway sorry to bother you with all that . Helps to write about it, thank you as always for listening. Hope everything makes sense as it is getting late and my eyes are closing themselves... and sorry in advance for any misspelling
 Take care and see you for another article XXX