Lost

Dear readers, hope you're OK, at least better than me lately, as you might already know by now if you have been reading my articles for the past few weeks and sorry to bother/annoy you with all that, don't mean to and would prefer to talk about something else, I assure you, like the book I've been reading or the stories I'm writing or would like to write one day, to talk about the sun that have been visiting us more often lately or holidays or friends or a few close members of family that I miss, or movies I've been seeing or seeing again and again (see 'No matter how much...'article for example)or talk about anything else for that matter, but apparently I can't yet...my mood has been low and still like to play russian mountains...grrr, I don't like it! still the problem of being able to find a job, now that uni has finished in May. It may sounds simple, just like some people might think it is either because they are less scared than me and it seems like the most natural steps (which is true) or maybe they're used to it...but for me it still not that simple, it feels like a giant step towards...my indenpendance! I'm panicking! and always wonder how those people do it? they make it sounds like it was nothing less than sending a letter in the post or something similar like taking breakfast in the morning or getting up or drinking a cup of tea/coffee/hot chocolate or doing some shopping...! when (for me) it is not! regularly feels like (sorry for the repetition!) a fish lost in the big ocean wondering which direction to go! still trying to figure out what to do and not to panic too much! when actually I'm...not excuse I guess but just what I feel! Hopefully, I probably will get through all that...and will try to be positive! thanks again for taking time to listening to me and hope you still have some pleasure reading this blog as much as I enjoy writing articles for the past three years and a few months now...! see you soon for another article, take care and have nice holidays! xxx