Lost

Dear readers, hope you're OK, at least better than me lately, as you might already know by now if you have been reading my articles for the past few weeks and sorry to bother/annoy you with all that, don't mean to and would prefer to talk about something else, I assure you, like the book I've been reading or the stories I'm writing or would like to write one day, to talk about the sun that have been visiting us more often lately or holidays or friends or a few close members of family that I miss, or movies I've been seeing or seeing again and again (see 'No matter how much...'article for example)or talk about anything else for that matter, but apparently I can't yet...my mood has been low and still like to play russian mountains...grrr, I don't like it! still the problem of being able to find a job, now that uni has finished in May. It may sounds simple, just like some people might think it is either because they are less scared than me and it seems like the most natural steps (which is true) or maybe they're used to it...but for me it still not that simple, it feels like a giant step towards...my indenpendance! I'm panicking! and always wonder how those people do it? they make it sounds like it was nothing less than sending a letter in the post or something similar like taking breakfast in the morning or getting up or drinking a cup of tea/coffee/hot chocolate or doing some shopping...! when (for me) it is not! regularly feels like (sorry for the repetition!) a fish lost in the big ocean wondering which direction to go! still trying to figure out what to do and not to panic too much! when actually I'm...not excuse I guess but just what I feel! Hopefully, I probably will get through all that...and will try to be positive! thanks again for taking time to listening to me and hope you still have some pleasure reading this blog as much as I enjoy writing articles for the past three years and a few months now...! see you soon for another article, take care and have nice holidays! xxx

What to do?

Dear readers, I hope that with that fine weather we had lately ,you're OK and are enjoying it wherever you are, whatever you're doing, holiday (or soon to be) or still working (then good luck to you!) As you probably already know, lately my mood has been low, playing russian mountains...well, not much progress there...I (still) don't sleep very well, I'm stressed, worried and still feels like a fish in a big ocean...I won't repeat myself too much or by now (lol) I'll have already bored you! :) in any case, this blog often helps sometimes, not matter how much I wrote the same things or tries to share with you different subjects...even though I'm still wondering how much longer I will continue it...or whether I'll write as much as I do...it's here if need...maybe not the same I guess as to really confide into someone (friends or family) but it kinds of helps me...as writing has always helped me and still does when I don't know what to say exactly...well, I have my writing...(smile) anyway, where was I? Yes, my mood and what still (oups also a word I seemed to use often^^) troubles me...I guess we are more or less the same when we finally leave uni to go into the 'real' word and to become indenpendant...it is very appealing as you can do whatever you want and not have someone to tell you what to do...but for me...it is scary...maybe once I'm in it, it will be fine...but for now...I'm...(trying not use the same word again...^^)maybe I should buy a synonyms dictionary in english, that would be quite helpful...lol, yet trying to figure out how to get through things, telling myself it'll be OK...not easy...but let's stay positive?! Thank you again for being here and listening to me (hope I don't bore you too much!) see you soon for another article (hopefully more joyful!),take care,xxx

Summertime

Dear readers, hope you're OK, I know that I probably ask you the same question everytime lol and sometimes just like me, one time is enough, though it doesn't mean it not too bad when someone ask you if you are fine, no matter how many times...it still nice to have someone or several person thinking about you, no?:) anyway, we have just started this new month, july! crazy as the time can pass quite quickly! and of course, the summer still makes us waiting impatiently, to be in swim suit on the beach or in the swimming pool with a good book and don't forget the sunscreen (don't be too lazy, I know but the sun can sometimes be wicked!! ) let's hope the sun will be here soon, despite of course making a few apparition...! well, we also need rain and water...but sun is still nice!!! :) anyway (probably a word you must have noticed I used quite often lol) just a short article...I don't know when I'll write a new one! lately, my mood has been playing russian mountains...and despite being getting used to it, it's still slightly annoying! :) many things in my head, uni is now finished, still strange sometimes, like something is missing lol! in the meantime (sorry again if I repeat myself too much, I'll be brief!) trying to figure what to do next, still scary and stressful for me...feel a bit lost and don't know what direction to take...! I suppose it is not abnormal...but I don't know...in any case, let's stay positive! :) and thank you again for listening to me! hope I don't boring to much! lol take care and see you soon for another article! xxxx

Thoughts-4

Dear readers, as usual I hope you're all OK and that everything is fine! :) just a short article today, as for me and since my last article...I'm Ok I guess, nonetheless my mood still love to play russian mountain...still many things in my mind...can't help it, my head is full of thoughts, don't sleep very well...and still scared about what to do next...(sorry if I repeat myself or annoy you but it helps to write about it nonetheless...)and adding to that...I'll be soon going back to France for the summer...can't help it but crazy as it is...I once again really want to stay in England...I like it very much here...I can't imagine being anywhere at the moment...(don't worry I'll always love France! :) I've started packing and god It's harder than imagine...it's just like the end of a chapter...just waiting to start a new one, hopefully soon and to be back in England...! :) I'll keep many and fond memories and from uni as. It was really great and I've learned so many things, I won't forget it! :) despite the stress with essays, exams, assignments...or deadlines...it was really worth it! :) I'll also miss the sea...to hear the wave coming and going, hearing the seagulls or having the wind brushing your face...or when the sun is up, just warming you...:) and all that soothing you, relaxing you...whenever you need...I'll miss my (crazy) roomates and the joie de vivre of the house I lived in for the past three years! the The small cities of Bognor Regis and Chichester might have been smaller compare to London but they also have their charms and are quite agreable too! :) I enjoyed it! :) on that note, not knowing whether I'll be writing before I leave, probably doing many packing and cleaning for the next person to claim (my) room...can't believe it, going to miss it of course! :) I'll leave you and see you soon for another article! :) take care, xxxx

Thoughts-3

Dear readers, hope that, as usual, you're all Ok and that the weather has improved! :) as for me, well...I could say I'm fine, I'm but lately my moood seems to like playing russian mountain again! many things in my head...as you know maybe already...uni is now finish and still can't believe it sometimes...seems crazy as these past three years have gone so fast but it is also good as I can easily say there were really great despite deadline for essays, exams and the stress attached to them...I couldn't have ask for better! I will miss it...! but a new adventure will start soon...I hope and to stay in England a bit longer if I can, I really like it here! :) in the meantime, this new adventure is still scaring me (see previous articles) sorry for annoying you with all that (smile) it just that with uni ending I guess it makes it more real...feel like a fish lost in the ocean, seems like a big step... anyway, it should be OK, let's stay positive, right? :) a part from that, I've still have my family, friends (whom of course I miss every day) whom I also know are not too far away, and listening to classical music with a good book (which lately I do a lot!), a nice walk on the beach with the sun warming you...listening to waves and the seaguls, nothing better! on that note, take care and see you later for another article! xxx

Classical Music

Dear readers, how are you? You seem to be in luck lately lol as you can probably see...I didn't wait to long to write another article...anyway, today will be just a short one...as you might have guess (see title) I'd like to talk about classical music! Well, I'm not an expert per say and certainly don't know how to read a music partition...always been a mystery to me, even when we learned at school a long time ago, but then again teacher thought (stupidely!) that we were already able to read and play...well they were a bit wrong...because in my case (or maybe others like me) I didn't know!! since that day, well, I still don't! and I guess, unless I take the time to learn...which should be complicated...it will be a mystery! :) but don't worry it's not a problem and it doesn't mean I don't like to listen to classical music from time to time! on the contrary,I find it very relaxing and mostly very soothing, don't you? Modern music can be nice and also like to listen to it but sometimes it takes my head off with all that noise...depending on what I'm listening of course, as sometimes it can be relaxing as well but classical music is just...I don't know...it makes me imagine how people could dance on it...you can find yourself lost it in...you don't always need lyrics...you can easily imagine how it works by just letting your imagination run by itself...no? :) on that note and maybe letting your imagination wander around by just pluging yourself in this soothing music or just on how people could dance...listening to classical music, or simply closing your eyes and feel the music, take care and see you later for another article! :) xxx

Books&Me

Dear readers,hope you're OK! You're in luck lol it is, I think, the fourth article this months, maybe it is due because these past few days, the sun (hoping it will last) seemed to have reappared a little despite the fresh temperature! :) anyway, always happy to indulge you with an article, whether it is a short or a long one...! :) I've been thinking a lot about this blog, as it has been three years already that I've got it and don't worry I've no regrets! :) I don't yet but probably one day it will be time for me to 'close'it and do something else...just a thought for now I reassure you but lately I've got the impression of having...how to say..? Hum...of having saying pretty much everything...(unless I forgot some subject I could share with you?) and just turning in circle...if you see what I mean? Between movies, books, place I've been, or...subjects I like to talk about(what's drive me crazy, what I like or don't like)...or how I feel...well, nothing definite yet...:) just an impression!:) will keep you posted in any case! And now, before boring you with that...(rire) today I wanted to talk you about you books! Yes, I lknow, by now you're probably thinks I'm crazy to love them so much!!! but it can't be helped! I simply love them...and if you have been following my blog for the past three years...and a few months, you are probably already aware of that! (lol) they are always there whenever I need, always ready to distract me,to let my imagination go, to inspire me, to give me new ideas for any future stories I might want (and would like to) write one day..., they make me smile, laugh and cry at the same time, whether I'm in the mood or not, I know I can always turn to them as crazy as it might seems! I can't live without them, just being around them makes me happy, to turn the page, to imagine how the characters are, to be see the words written, to read them again and again, to react at what the authors is saying to us, whether we agree or not, to want to 'kick' some characters ass, to feel or wanted to help the good one (hero or heroine!) to just plunge yourself in the stories for a while, forgetting how many hours pass, or to forget about your worries or what you have to do for a little while, to escape...:) nothing better! don't worry, I'm aware...that you eventually have to come back to the real world but sometimes it is always nice to take time to read a few page and distract yourself, no? which why sometimes with all the excitement around Kindle and all these portable books...such as I-Pad or any useful tablets...I'm afraid it won't be completly the same and wonder whether books will survive? I think it will...I'm not an expert but if books have been published for...what? At least 200 hundred years or so, I don't really know...why shouldn't it stay that way? maybe books and e-books can learn to live together, as they seem to do until now? let's hope so! call me old fashion but I still love a real books even though a Kindle (or any other brand) can have a useful side...as it's quite easy to travel with...but for me nothing will replace the feeling of a good book when you can help but not put it down until you have finish it! :) anyway, I will do a short version of a Bookholic soon...maybe in a few weeks...I can't write about all the books I've read or this time you'll think I'm really crazy (lol) kidding! it is just a bit long and it takes time, that's all...mostly why I don't do it very often I guess...never mind it doesn't change the fact that I love books! but you already know that, don't you? (smile discreet) :) so, see you soon for another article, take care, xxx P.s= as usual sorry in advance if I forgot a word, or if mispelled something...I try to re-read myself but it happens that I can forgot...to corret it or don't see it right away...anyway, enjoy! :)